habits

i don’t know about you, but i have these habits,

where i compare, not just our strengths and virtues

but every bit of our being-

and place myself the lowest lower could ever be.

i dont know about you.

i dont know about you, but i have these habits,

where i scorn and shudder,

the mirror reflects my monstrosity,

food becomes my enemy,

sweet tastes like guilt and empty feels like pleasure.

i dont know about you.

i dont know about you, but i have these habits,

that i can never see through,

growing up and growing along,

i just hope to love (myself)